I’m creating this blog to build the kind of community I’ve been searching for—a space for women, whether mothers or not, who are looking to recalibrate their lives and thrive.
A little about me: I’m a mom to a one-year-old little boy who completely turned my world upside down in every way imaginable. On top of navigating new motherhood, I was laid off from a company I had been with for eight years—just three months after returning from maternity leave. Losing that sense of security while also trying to rediscover who I was with a six-month-old, all while feeling the pressure to contribute financially, was devastating. I crumbled.
For three months, I was consumed by anxiety, shame, depression, and a relentless imposter syndrome. I had started my tech career as a manual software tester, eventually growing into an intermediate automation engineer—but I lacked the foundational background of a traditional software engineer. To make matters worse, the company I worked for had a niche, in-house testing framework, making my experience feel even less transferable. And with tech layoffs flooding the industry, the job market became oversaturated with candidates who had more experience, deeper technical knowledge, and broader skill sets than I did. To this day, I still struggle with feeling underqualified.
I became obsessed with finding a job, convinced that my sole purpose was to regain financial stability. Eventually, I landed a new role—one I believed would offer security and career growth. But now, due to the political climate and the nature of my company, change is looming again. That uncertainty has pushed me back into unhealthy patterns: sleepless nights, stress-induced loss of appetite, and the creeping return of depression.
When I was first laid off, my husband suggested I start a blog. I dismissed the idea—how could I focus on writing when my priority was finding a job? But now, I realize that mindset wasn’t healthy. I need a space for myself, a release. And more than that, I want to cultivate a community of women who feel the same—new moms (and non-moms alike) who feel out of control in different areas of life and are ready to recalibrate and find a new normal.
We don’t have to have the same goals or aspirations, but we can support one another, be a sounding board during tough times, and celebrate each other’s wins. This blog is my journal for mental health—it’s not just about motherhood, career struggles, or self-care. It’s about all of it. Because as women, and especially as mothers, we carry so much.
For me, my recalibration starts with earning my AWS Cloud Practitioner certification. Stepping into the world of cloud computing feels like a path toward greater job security and financial stability. Maybe this will be just my personal echo chamber—or maybe it won’t. Who knows? But what I do know is that I’m trying. And I hope you’ll try with me.
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